This is just a written version of a glimpse of my ugly,overdue breakdown. 

I want to let you know that your condescension and arrogance is not amusing.  It is plain terrible. I feel unsafe and incompetent when I’m with you. I’d like to let it out. If you were in front of me, I’m dreaming of putting you into place.  But it’s hard. Terribly difficult.  I often let … More This is just a written version of a glimpse of my ugly,overdue breakdown. 

I am one of the Walter Mitty’s in this vast world. 

“I am an ordinary but ineffectual person indulging in daydreams of personal triumphs. ” It struck a cord in me. I was in a constant state of  holistic fugue. I say this because whether it be physical, emotional and even spiritual. I am in this fugue. I wane and wax so much but it’s more.of … More I am one of the Walter Mitty’s in this vast world. 

Latte: “A fluffy misconception of an otherwise concentrated bittersweet truth”a.k.a. Sleep is (not) for the weak. Epiphanies happen mostly after waking and being sober. 

Late post is late.  I’ve been procrastinating quite a lot on life.  But nevertheless, to each their own. If I wanted to do it in my own pace, please do understand.  On another note, I’ve been here for more than a year already in the Land of Silver Ferns. The majestic greenery,vast lands and gorgeous … More Latte: “A fluffy misconception of an otherwise concentrated bittersweet truth”a.k.a. Sleep is (not) for the weak. Epiphanies happen mostly after waking and being sober. 

Espresso: Concentrated shots to remind you of reality (in NZ)

Late post is late.   I mean 7+months late. So many things has happened. I don’t know how I’ll start. I’ll be stating just a nutshell of everything that has happened. And writing some posts that’ll be stating events in reverse. This is to prevent and manage an meltdown that was long overdue. It had … More Espresso: Concentrated shots to remind you of reality (in NZ)

Latte: Milky fluff-awakening to a new (visionary) beginning a.k.a. Till we see each other again to my Tarot mentor/friend

Today, I met up with my Tarot friend/mentor/pseudo-therapist at my favorite cafe, Press Cafe in Rockwell for my final tarot reading from him (in maybe, months or years).   Twas’ sad for I grew with him and the store. I had sessions with him back when I was still in High school. I had my … More Latte: Milky fluff-awakening to a new (visionary) beginning a.k.a. Till we see each other again to my Tarot mentor/friend

Espresso: Concentrated shots of negativity to remind you of life

I’ve realized that I’m a sponge.   A sponge of absorbing the frustrations, vexations, ranting  and overall (extremely NOT)  positive everything from ALMOST ALL of the people surrounding me.   And…this has stretched me thin. Like my being stretched to its utmost capability of absorbing and compartmentalizing. I want to (just) implode (and be done with it). … More Espresso: Concentrated shots of negativity to remind you of life